I’m Positive I’m a pastor, and I’m positive that it is hard to not be negative. Now I am the furthest thing from a glass half empty kind of guy. I’m usually very positive, at least that’s what I thought until our latest challenge at church. Two Sunday’s ago our pastor got up (I’m that pastor by the way) and challenged all of us to be positive for four weeks. He even upped the challenge and said that nothing negative can come out of our mouths. At first I didn’t think it would be that difficult, but then as the days have worn on I have found myself coming to a scary conclusion….I realize that I am positive that I am more negative than I thought. I’m positively negative. I don’t want to be, it just seems to be how I’m wired. I’m realizing that the negativity is deeply rooted in my inner core and it takes some serious work to unearth. I’m not giving up, I’m just working harder.
I woke up today in a positively bad and negative mood. Maybe it was because the sun wasn’t shining, or maybe it was because the elves I hired didn’t make my coffee. Darn those little people! I’m not sure why, I was just not happy. I was driving in my truck this morning and realized that I was not my chipper self. Humph! So I had to make a choice, I didn’t feel any different but I chose to be happy. I chose not to bite peoples heads off, and to force a smile. To actually make the choice to display a different type of Craig than what I was feeling. It seems to have worked. I’m not happy as a loon, but I’m at lest partially acting like a loon again.
I’m positive I’m a pastor. I’m positive I’m a negative person, but I positively know that I can change it all if I just put my mind and spirit to the task.
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Just so you know…I’m positive that you ‘are a loon’ more often than not and for that I am thankful. You and Patti make the world a little brighter, a little nicer and a LOT MORE FUN!! Thanks!